It’s like the first breath of fresh air on a cold fall evening. Chills to the bone, but you know what’s done is done, and it’s on to the next day.
From a month ago till now, so many things have changed, and I’ve found my calling in music, yet fear still is a constant battle. Other things in my life have changed as well, not living at home for the first time in a few years has been a bit of a challenge, love has taken me down a rough road that has taught me a lot about myself, and how much I need to open up instead of wanting for myself as much as I do.
I’ve made my goals, every single one over the last 4 years. I think those around me deserve all of the love that I was given growing up, cause there’s a lot of people around me that have gone through more than I ever will, funny though sometimes you just can’t just wipe the slate clean and start over, there’s nothing that can fix a haunting past, just love and learn, and know there’s always a chance to win and a chance to lose.
In the end, we live to die, doing whatever it takes to find one person to just kick it with the rest of your life. Yeah, I found that I just have to wait till the right place and right time. It’s really changed my point of view, made me pull back a blindfold, cause I really hate waiting for things, and it’s a very difficult flaw, but I have to rid the worry from my life in this situation, and just do what I do, and always hope for the best for myself, but humble myself in knowing, it will all be ok even if it doesn’t work out the way I want it to. I’m selfish in places that I need to open up.
I’m really glad I have the friends I have, and the new ones I’ve made, it’s so amazing in so little time so much can change.
I’ll always be here, no matter where I go.
I love you, whoever you are, you have a friend in me.